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y m i so upset..? deep down inside i want u to ask me.. deep down inside i want u to want to see me deep down inside i want u to feel excited to see me but in reality… all these arent going to come true.. someone taught me to not have expectations.. to not hope.. to not wish… but in reality.. its hard.. it so hard if u really want to spend time with that person. want to be with...

Aug 3rd

i just ill just rant a little here since i dun...

i really feel very small now.. like im trying to squeeze myself back into ur life.. trying has become harder and harder. like calling a cellphone and just praying for someone to pick the phone up. i really feel so insignificant. u dont see it.. but i do. im not sensitive. its juz obvious. i really dunno if this will make it to its 7th month let alone 10 yrs. i really dun feel u there anymore. u...

Jul 25th

Reblog with something a GAZEROCKER would...

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Jul 21st

64 notes

Jul 21st

564 notes

all alone.

sometimes i feel everything has been stripped from me.. sometimes i juz feel so alone when i see “signed out” sometimes i juz feel that the tiny strings keeping my sanity together, can’t take much more i understand but its so hard.. its so hard it hurts.. i just need someone to understand.. i need you to understand. rendered so helpless so weak so vulnerable so...

Jul 20th

Jul 14th

42 notes

Jul 3rd

3,375 notes

if u love him/her let them go, if they are meant...

These days people love to use “if u love him/her let them go, if they are meant to be urs they will return to u”. but i think they are getting the wrong message. yes, its true relationships cant be forced. but you cant leave everything up to fate / destiny. you cant just because i love you. im going to walk away. and if u are truely meant to be with me den ull come. i think thats...

Jul 3rd

Jun 29th

73 notes

Jun 22nd

486 notes

Jun 22nd

Just not good enough.

Even though we are almost going into our 6 month.. I suddenly find myself thinking back. The comment in LJS really struck me pretty hard.. Once you told me u liked someone really musically talented.. but the only reason u din get together was coz he was malay. Another time you told me you liked another person. but the reason u din get together was coz u found out he was gay. And in Beijing, I...

Jun 19th

Jun 17th

1,397 notes

Jun 17th

505 notes

why?

dont think u gonna read this, dont think u gonna care either, knowing how u view this relationship. u say i only make u feel loved only a few times.. as much as i would want to say u have never made me feel this way, i start to think back.. actually everytime i kiss u, i feel loved. so its gotta be everytime huh? i juz dun see why u choose not to look on the bright side.. are u saying that...

Jun 15th

wtf is happening to u these past few days..

aft the camp u changed.. i dunno wads happening to u.. can u see it?

May 26th

you were the only thing i could finally be proud...

May 15th

Now I know god isn't real.

Praying is useless. Trying is useless too. If you can actually see the real reality and not your reality. We are identical people from the same planet. Nothing is different. The way you talk, since day one, was as if u had no expectations for this at all. Everything I do is wrong. Being human is wrong. Being angry is wrong. Wanting you is wrong. Loving you is wrong. Missing you is wrong....

May 15th

ARGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH...

May 6th

im the one who has to sleep late at nite rite aft...

May 6th

i would have forgiven you without the hearts. without the sandwiches. without everything. i never did think that things like these worked but at that point i could really used a hug and a kiss. its not that i don’t appreciate ur efforts. but u cant expect to plant a seed in one morning and see a tree the next. i just needed some time. i could never really stay angry at u forever. u noe that....

May 6th

heart broken and betrayed.

May 2nd

Everytime i want to, you say no. Den now it...

May 2nd

Apr 26th

112 notes

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its not fair if u have such expectations for me when u cant even do it. i mean its nt as if i din as u to join us. not as if u will come find me either. i asked to go see u, u say maybe u not at home ah, not wad ah. i dunno u want me to come or dun wan me to come. one direct yes or no will be fine. and it was my fren’s bday today cum nic’s winning celebration. i tot they will end early...

Apr 25th

you just dun get it do you?

you never think its your fault, somehow its always mine haha. just go ahead and make my life miserable, make ur life miserable, thanks to ur warped way of thinking. u are the one tt say u will stop this. i say u rich oso become bad thing. den wad? now my fault la. i not happy oso my fault. u dun sms me to apologize, or chat, or even say good night, all oso my fault. wadever la, u wan go to other...

Apr 23rd

argh im such a shit head

Apr 14th

1 note

if u really love me, den show me.

like u said, i dun want only words either. y muz it only be me tt muz be sweet to u. u are making me feel like it always were one sided. i follow around u like a dog, but u never even call me once to talk to me before. if u think im nt sweet to u when im giving u my 100%, i dunno wad to do. this one i cannot change alr. im at my 100%. its been 3 months alr. u seriously cant open up to me in this 3...

Apr 13th

is it possible to be so in love with a girl that...

it always has been and will be my fault.. i dont want this anymore… someone change me so none of this will happen anymore.

Apr 6th

i am drowning.

Apr 6th

Mar 4th

4,837 notes

Mar 4th

im sry..

i noe u are doing alot of things for me, when u dont have to. i noe u love me, when u dun have to. i noe u try to protect me, when u dun have to. but.. u noe, i may be a bustard in saying this. but i can also say the same things back? i try to look in ur perspective, but u cant look into mine, n i dun blame u. i try to love u more, but u think u always love me more, n i dun blame u. i try...

Mar 1st

Hi honey..

umm its supposed to be our 2nd month anniversary.. but we ended on a pretty bad note last nite.. i realized recently ive been getting quite out of hand, getting petty n stuff.. something i seriously wrong wif me here.. so im sry okay? its ok if u still dun want me, coz i still want u very badly. i m gonna try to change starting frm today. take it as a promise from me, if i dun change den u can...

Feb 28th

Feb 26th

929 notes

Honey

myjudgementallife: I can’t tell how much I am missing you right now. Thanks to my awful migraine and cramps, I am feeling terribly vulnerable and I think you are the only one that can make me feel much better. and trust me I know about the treasure. I have never been very verbal with my actual feelings in my entire life so give it sometime to show ok? I love you. I know you know that too. ...

Feb 26th