Now I know god isn’t real.
Praying is useless. Trying is useless too.
If you can actually see the real reality and not your reality. We are identical people from the same planet. Nothing is different. The way you talk, since day one, was as if u had no expectations for this at all.
Everything I do is wrong. Being human is wrong. Being angry is wrong. Wanting you is wrong. Loving you is wrong. Missing you is wrong. Wanting stuff is wrong. Apologizing is wrong. Admitting my mistake is wrong. Not admitting its my fault is wrong. Wanting some love back from you is wrong.Wanting you to be you is wrong. Wanting to see you is wrong. Being me is wrong. Doing stuff for you is wrong. Joking is wrong. Wanting to make you laugh is wrong. Wanting to look nice is wrong. Its as if you are trying to tell me its a mistake for me to fall in love with you. But up till now i still don’t think so.
I loved you longer than you have loved me. I loved you ever since you hated me. Ever since you wanted to play me. But I still love you. Shouldn’t that say something?
I don’t know what I’m trying to say either. Maybe you love me very much. But your heart is not ready for a relationship. That maybe the past already. But i don’t know I’m very confused as well.
If you ever read this. Please forget this post. It doesn’t make any sense. It’s just hollow and spinning.
