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Even though we are almost going into our 6 month.. I suddenly find myself thinking back. The comment in LJS really struck me pretty hard..

Once you told me u liked someone really musically talented.. but the only reason u din get together was coz he was malay.

Another time you told me you liked another person. but the reason u din get together was coz u found out he was gay.

And in Beijing, I asked you. “I’m not smart, not handsome, not funny, not rich. So why do you like me?” you replied, “I don’t know, maybe coz of your persistence, I guess.” I cried in the airport… I dont know if you remember.. 

Then in LJS you told me you talk to this guy for 4 hours plus straight and that I cant do that.. On the way home you told me it was a good thing, so i wont be irritating. Then I thought =D for a moment.. but when i asked you if her was irritating, u replied saying that he was funny.. and when i asked if i was funny, u replied okok ba..

Makes me really come to think… If im really special.. At first, u only like me coz i chased for 8 months ah?

I really feel like I cannot make you happy.. Or make you proud.. I feel like I not doing your pretty face justice.. I dont want you to hide being fake smiles because of me.. sometimes i dun even noe wad u thinking about coz u juz give me i dont knows. those staring into space makes u look v sad too…

I really want to hear the real reason why you love me.. I just hope maybe u can make me feel a little bit more special? coz i really feel like crap..

maybe i am crap..