:(
y m i so upset..?
deep down inside i want u to ask me..
deep down inside i want u to want to see me
deep down inside i want u to feel excited to see me
but in reality… all these arent going to come true..
someone taught me to not have expectations.. to not hope.. to not wish…
but in reality.. its hard.. it so hard if u really want to spend time with that person. want to be with her.. have fun with her..
but these times are.. diminishing.. i really want to spend time with u, talk to u, laugh with u, see u laugh, smile, sleep.
why is it so hard not to have expectations? isnt it supposed to be easiest to not do anything?
i really wish u would ask me… “would u be my…” but i guess.. i dun fit the criteria ba..
once u told me u wished we could do smthn tt would let us be close to each other without looking weird.. but i guess u forgot..
if u ever ask me, in the future.. i dun think i would be as happy i would or supposed to be.. like im asking u to ask me..
hhaha why sia.. y i like this? but.. m i really too much?? is this too much? only reason i can give is probably i really dun fit ur criteria. so i guess… no matter wad.. ill be a substitute, 2nd best. in soccer, in life, in school, in everything..
number 2. in ur heart.
